update you, update me

First of all, who wants to change my blogskin in return for something? Make it pretty and I will do something for you in exchange =)

Secondly, and a bit randomly, months ago, I dissed Shakira's music vid Hips Don't Lie. I take that back now, and admire her for doing something different.

Thirdly, I have come to notice, or rather it has become more obvious, my negative points. Example, I am very particular about my friends. Also, I'm highly emotional and melodramatic (I hate that!). I mean I cry while praying for God's sake...not because I can feel God's love coursing through my veins but because praying is a very reflective time for me to ponder about life in general and sometimes I get scared by the things I find. I think too much about mundane things and dismiss the more important things. I always think people have an underlying intention in their actions and words and read too much into them (and then react dramatically to it).

And so, my new year's Attempt at Change (resolution is too strong a word I cant commit to) is to work on those things I mentioned above. I will try not to let my throat get all choked up with emotion when I notice my dad's age spots and sagging skin and reminisce about a time, not too long ago, when he had firm abs and people thought he was on steroids, saying 'wah! Uncle! You fit ah!', I will try not to let what people say and do affect me too much and take a chill pill. I will be less particular about the people I mix with, and try to be less judgemental and prevent thoughts like 'oh my god, what was he thinking when he got dressed today' jump to mind the first thing I meet them.

On a happier note, how can I forget the hot topic on everyone's lips?! Chinese New Year!!!! I have noticed a few things over this CNY that Id like to comment on. Things like when people wish each other "happy new year". This has evolved literally, into a greeting. Old colleagues meet, 'eh!! Long time no see ah! Happy new year happy new year!", somewhat like a chant really. Out of all the "happy new years" that had spilled out of my mouth over the weekend, I am very sad to say, I didn’t mean any. Not even to my parents. Not once, while I wished anybody to have a happy new year did I actually mean: I hope you have a happy new year. I hope this year you will start new and wonderful things and it may it be year filled with happiness. I highly suspect many will find themselves stuck in the same rut. Maybe a long, long time ago, when CNY was created by some bozos, the people really were kind-hearted, sincere and helpful. Not spiteful, greedy and superficial like we all are right now. So, sticking to my new year's Attempt at Change, I will not dwell on the deterioration of Man's morals, and get emotional, but sincerely wish my family and loved ones a wonderful and memorable year ahead and to find whatever you may be looking for. and maybe u will really mean what u wish people next CNy. And will someone please change my blogksin for me?